2012-07-29

denying your true nature only lasts for so long:
(
i skinned myself raw and sewed a wetsuit that fits me better.
)

2012-07-09

three words

he doesn't know i can hear his eyelids.
 

from deep dreams i surface;
rest of him frozen in silence
he mouths the words he fears.

he doesn't know how loud his heart beats.

2012-07-06



  he is my brother. 
not the kind of brother given by blood, but the kind that is chosen by heart.

we drank jack&coke that day and had serious conversations.
we didn't save the world;
the world means very little compared to abstract thought. 
we saved emotions; 
we saved belly laughs and waterfalls.

he is übermensch.

and sometimes we are dark,
very dark;
darker than black beetles,
darker than jack&coke.



(for a few minutes yesterday
i was alive again.)

i don't mind smiling;
feel my heart beating.




i wanna print out my photos and write stories all over them. 


we all float down here