i have lost my loudness. i can't speak up, it's as if i don't want to disturb the world with my presence. even in the middle of nowhere i can't call out for her, who is ten steps ahead of me. it's as if i don't want the trees to know her name. i don't want them to hear me. i don't want them to hear me calling out for attention. whatever i need to say can wait. and maybe i don't even need to say it, and will not bother saying it when i catch up with her. i can wait to be heard if what i have to say is that important. and if it's not, i don't need to shout it out loud anyway.

2011-06-03
olympos-turkey